it’s just a matter of our WILLINGNESS to His WILL. :)

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Calling for a whole body massage caused by the looooooooong hrs of duty being an evaluator. >,< im so stressed, tired and pretty exhausted. ahaha. BEING one of the S.A is not EASY. REALLY. ahaha. They go around the whole building, up, down, left, right. haahaay..plus some FROSH (loves to bully evaluators.xD) ahaha so I salute all the SA students for their patience (to those makukulit n students)ahaha . . I didnt expect  that I could do those things..Im not that kind of person BEFORE who do things that I know would challenge my PATIENCE=)) . .

 I want to  buy things from my OWN and not from my parents’. I want the feeling of fulfillment having reward that you know you really worked hard for it. I am proud to say that “IM REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF”.. (proud na proud pa) that’s all for today,more stressful duty days to come. :D gudnyt.

I know God will reward me for this.

“But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded.”

—2 Chronicles 15:7

—miss evaluator. :D

——QUIET TIME.. 

No matter how long and stressful day i have.. I will NEVER forget to take my “quiet time”. After doing several plates.. I can always find REST in Him whenever I read His words.. How powerful His words are..indeed!  For me it is the most important and significant part of our daily living.. the time when God speaks to us through Bible reading. Isn’t it nice to spend time talking someone you know who loves you most?

YOU must try it.. He’s waiting for you.. talk to Him

It’s really worth it..

Had a great night with my VG last night..

long sleep at my small group member’s room.. 

Had dinner together with my family.. (I missed them so much..)

planning to attend victory imus church with them tomorrow..

and now.. taking my quiet time.=p

—like a butterfly found it’s plant.

“If you live forever, what do you live for?” — a line that comes from a famous movie,”twilight”. As I remember the movie, I also remember this line and I always ask myself, “what do i really live for?” and “what should I live for?”..

It was MAY 7 1992 when I saw this world.. and since that. I only know that “I AM THE PILOT OF MY LIFE”,”EVERYTHING THAT HAPPEN IS JUST AN ACCIDENT (SOME ARE DESTINY’S FATE)”. “FOLLOW YOUR HEART” and some UNGODLY THOUGHTS. That’s why I’m so sick and tired of the same days of my life doing all things on my own. I wake up, eat,take a bath,go to school,sleep then tomorrow I wake up,eat,take a bath,go to school,sleep.eerr! It’s just my life’s daily routine and I’m desperately sick about it. Then I thought that the solution for being unhappy is a relationship with someone (that made my heart tired because of the WRONG FROGS—NOT MY TRUE PRINCE).Feeling hopeless Living my own life. Im really searching for something that I didn’t know and something that… CAN CHANGE MY LIFE.

Not knowing that there’s someone waiting for me this year, not only my friends,gimiks,and some plates..BUT GOD.Yeah..He was. I only thought that God was our creator,that He sacrificed His life for our sin after that I didn’t know anymore about Him (how did I say that He’s my God and not do what He says???? (Luke 6: 46) I didn’t even know anything about him ? and I dont have a DEEP RELATIONSHIP with Him). Then I met some mapuans in church.And after some months with those people.. I felt that there’s something that changed in my perspective of life.. even those people who Im with before,they noticed that there’s something different in me (si God yan e).It was 18 of July when I proudly said that “I, MARYLEEN CO BELTRAN am a woman of God”. I got baptized that day. Yes! Im FREE!! from my SIN to Christ, NEW LIFE, NEW ME. It seems like I really am BORN AGAIN.And that was the experience that I will not get sick to go back all over again because that DAY made me feel the feeling that I’ve never had before , the feeling of EXTREME HAPPINESS that nothing and no one can make. And that was the BEST decision I’ve ever made, to choose Him as my God, to become a CHRISTIAN. After being blinded for 6570 days..219 months or 18 years.I already found my HAPPINESS, I already found Him. my true Man, my God…. I feel contented. I feel secured. .  I feel satisfied..I can’t find a right word to fit it. so unexplainable.. so undescribable..

Then I realized that the thing that’s lacking in me is the RELATIONSHIP to Him.. Now, I love to welcome sunshine with a BIG SMILE in my face because of the excitement to see what God will do to CHANGE the every second of everyday of my life..^^ (I AM A LIVING TESTIMONY)

—GOD CHANGES LIVES

—SOME CHANGES IN MY LIFE..

LIVING THE WAY WHAT I WANT TO—» THE WAY “HE” WANTS.

SEARCHING FOR MY MAN TO—» WAITING FOR MY GOD-FEARING MAN.

TIRED AND SICK TO—-» HAPPY AND EXCITED. =p

“YOU,WHAT DO YOU LIVE FOR?”

Hi, Mommy. I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’m only a few weeks old. You’re going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I’ve got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don’t have it yet, but I will when I’m born. I’m going to be your only child, and you’ll call me your one and only. I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We’ll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn’t wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! …He wasn’t happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don’t think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don’t think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay… but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That’s a sound I don’t like. It doesn’t make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I’m not sure if I do. It wasn’t right. You say he loves you… why would he hurt you? I don’t like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you’re so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I’m happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn’t talking right. He said he didn’t want you. I don’t know why, but that’s what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don’t care if you think that he is a good person, I think he’s bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn’t want us. He doesn’t like me. Why doesn’t he like me, Mommy?

You didn’t talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It’s been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven’t talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don’t you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don’t you do that when you’re awake, any more?

I’m 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren’t you proud of me? We’re going somewhere today, and it’s somewhere new. I’m excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you’re as excited as I am. I can’t wait.

…Mommy, I’m getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don’t know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something’s going to happen soon. I’m really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don’t worry Mommy, I’m safe. I’m in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it’s called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don’t you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I’m really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don’t you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn’t I love you enough? Please say you’ll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don’t want to be here, I want you to love me again! I’m really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!


I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

If you’re against abortion, reblog.

As what the title says.. It’s my first time to have a blog here.. ^^